I've been distant from writing lately as there have been some things that have been going on in my life that I really need to displace. I do reflect what I feel into my writing and frankly the things that I have been dealing with is unimaginable to the "normal" person. I guess that the lesson that I need to learn is that again I need to lower my expectations of people so the disappointment in them doing wrong is not such a heavy blow. When do people just "get it" and something in them says "what am I doing with my life, and how does it affect others?" People cannot just NOT care can they? Sitting here as tire as I am I still find time to try to evaluate their mental capacity and it's breaking down my own. On a brighter note, besides all the drama floating around, I found myself. I found myself in the form of a man that looks at me and there are no words to describe the feelings that are felt. An unspoken word that is so clear. It's like drinking a ice cold Sierra Mist! Getting that sudden refreshment feeling that is fast, intense and surprising. I'm happy to surround myself with my circle that has showed me unconditional love throughout everything when I thought that I just needed to run and hide. And please understand that by me saying "run and hide" it means so that I don't choke the shit outta you for being ignorant. I'm done with drama. I'm ready to he happy, been ready to be happy....So leave me alone and let me soak all this in!