SinSiNattie

Funny How #3--Alone and Contemplating

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Funny how I'm always alone and you are always with your family. I go to bed alone and you are with your family. I spend the evening with you and you have to leave me to, yes again, go home to be with your family. I wake up alone and you are still with your family. At what point is your family ME?

I'm Happy, You're Happy....Now what???

So I like you and you like me. We've progressed into our relationship and coming up on the point where when we get around new people I'm introduced as just your girlfriend and your just my boyfriend. or we just each other's boo. At what point does this title change? What is the next "promotion"....significant other? Do guys really use those terms? Some of us women get right down to it and say that "this is my future husband" and then the look of "OMFG" comes over the dude. Why is this? Why is this so scary that a woman looks to you as her future husband? Are you not confident in your relationship with her to smile and claim your woman and your title with a "Helz Yea"! Now on the flip side of all this, I have witnessed the man tell his guests (family included) that "this is my future wife"! Ding, Ding, Ding!!! Why will this female look at this fool and roll her eyes and say some off the wall shit like "You need to do more than that to have me as your wifey"! C'mon ladies, these men are coming at you correct and you either need to recognize that they do in fact care about you or go back to dealing with that same nonsense that you been dealing with.

Now, you're my dude and I'm your girl! What's next? The family meeting...lol! Yes ya'll, we all have some that we claim or not and what is the deciding factor to introduce them to your better half? Hmmm...Janice is the outcast of the family only because she slept with your cousin's baby daddy but you think that you two have a banging sense of fashion sooo...check, she made the intro list...lol! Tyrone, just got out of jail two months ago and everyone in the family is really taking bets on how long he will stay out before he gets his ass locked up again BUT that "prison iron" got his body ripped and you think that your dude could holla at him about his routine sooo....check! He made the intro list too! Now, you see your momma walk out the kitchen door with that big ass pan of baked beans for the BBQ and you decide to grab your girl and bust a "U" right in the middle of the lawn and hop the fence all because "baby, I love my momma and I don't want her to talk about you to your face". BUT then you realize that his momma is the same woman that you met at the nail salon talking about this girl that her ONLY SON been dating for 7 years now and then you start to think that "we've only been together for 3 months" and then as you approach the car you decide to confront this fool and ask him "who tha fuck is Renee" (you only know her name because you was being nosey when his momma was talking).

But in this whole dysfunctional world you take his sorry ass back because he fed you some bullshit about "I don't tell my momma everything and me and that girl been over since '92" but then he gets down on one knee and asks you "will you marry me boo" and you of course say "YES". Why, why, whyyyyyyy!

Now that you're married and expecting their first child....

Okay readers, finish this blog for me...lol! I'm looking forward to seeing how creative that ya'll are...lmao!

Time for change...

Monday, July 26, 2010

I remember it like it was yesterday. I’d had come to the point in my life where I was ready to give myself to a man. Not just any man but whom I thought was my soul mate at the time. Now we were young and stupid (yes ya’ll, straight ass young & dumb) and I wanted at the time for him to make a decision that he apparently wasn’t able to make. Though circumstances always change and somehow we always found our way back to each other, every time was different…why was this? How after years after the initial meeting and my ultimatum of choosing me or the streets and unfortunately the choice was the streets am I always taken to yet another meeting, different circumstances and the promise of being a better man do I still believe him. I believe that he would never hurt me. I believed it then and I still believe that he would have provided everything that I wanted and treated me like a queen. Wow…so many years…. 2, 4, 5, 8, 10. Everything is the same as it was. BUT now he is coming to me with his heart in his hand (as he has always done) and yet again there is a decision to me made. But this time it is not the questions that are flowing from my mouth to his ears but from his heart to my heart which is making my mind go crazy. What is it that has changed? Are we the same people that we once were? Did we really change at all? Could we be happy with the lives that we have set forth for ourselves and be able to allow that other to enter with such grace? Who determines our fate at this point…Me, Him, or HE (the almighty)?

The way that this man has always questioned me about the paternity of MY child as if it were OUR child always emphasizes how great of a father he is.

With time there is change. Change for the good and sometimes for the bad, in people and in circumstance. So with all the changes that are/were being made, I guess the real question is “Is this a big enough change to CHANGE my life?” that is the burning question of the night….

40/30..Submits...wow!

So i received this message the other day and still i'm not feeling this woman at all. First you hate me for no reason at all and then you send me a hateful "inbox" (remember... the 40/30 blog) and now you want to apologize...hmm...I dunno people, what do you think? First off, again, I'm not a fan of the inbox messages anyways so as before here is the entire message:

"Cassandra Niecey Dallas July 25 at 4:17pm Report

I apologize for coming at you the way I did I'm a lady first and I should not have took my personal issues out on you what I go through is my business and I don't even know you like that or even talk to you like that. so I'm done with the drama its over I want peace I dont do gossip and I hope this ends today even on fb we dont have to be best friends or friends at all for that matter but I don't want the tension. So hopefully as woman we can agree an be done

Mrs. Dallas"

Okay, Now I don’t know what to do with this. I should have never been involved in the first place but now you want to apologize to me as if I cared. I am who I am and you all know that I am three people in one (SinSiNattie > Nattie > Natasha) and quite frankly we are all a bitch! We do not change our ways for one person and we do hold grudges. So I guess the real question is…If this was you, what would your reaction be to this situation?

Welcome to Ms. Valerie

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Wassup Family. I want to introduce you to Ms. Valerie. She inboxed me a nice message today after reading the 40/30 blog that I posted early this morning (and yes, I'm still pissed!). See, why can't all my messages be nice like hers...lol! Welcome her into the family with open arms. This is what she had on her wall today. Too damn funny...

40/30 aka the #1 Fan

So.... I'm being blamed because you cant get your shit together in your house? okay! I'm gonna go really slow for you and only use little words because I know you wont understand it...Did you get that first part "sweetheart".

First I need to address my real fans before I blast your ass in this early a.m. To my readers, let me say thank you. The new number is 1772 and I have enjoyed every moment of this. Now I also would like to apologize because I have this GIRL not woman that is involving me in this little game that she has going on and well I thought that it would amuse you so let me put it out there and please feel free to comment as to what you feel I should do. We will all thank her soon because like I said before "simple bitches is so easy."

I received a "inbox note" on facebook today from Cassandra Niecey Dallas that simply read (and this is a straight copy/paste of this ignorant shit):

"You know what sweetheart I have had enough of Bull Shit!!!!! He aint going to check your ass I will no matter what me and my hub is going through it has nothing to do with you. You just keep picking and picking and you know what if fb is making your 9 hour day when you can be working and doing somehthing productive then have at it. When I see you in person you don't have shit to say be a woman about yours please. It don't matter what you think you can do to get my hub it WONT WORK ok sweetheart and IF you do then you deserve him because you have put in over time to get him. So get you some business please. I have had enough I'm so tired of you anything you got to say handle it when you see me in person ok please and by the way get you some class 101 you need it because on my worse day you nothing up against me ok so now run that to my mother and sister in law you got the right one BITCH!!!!!!!!! "

OKAY now ya'll know I'm bout to get at her right!?!?! I told this bitch to just click that fuckin button...you know which one I'm talkin about!

Don't send me no message for you to deny, let everybody know how you feeling. Don't get me wrong, I am flattered that you took time out of your day (of not doin shit) to send me a muthafuckin message! WOW!

So now I'm gonna respond to that BULLSHIT (yes honey, it is one word... not two) I know you have had enough of bullshit. But the bullshit does not come from me. It's all in your mind sweetheart. He ain't gotta nor has he eva had to "check me" because I didn't do anything to your dumb ass. You are correct when you say that what you're goin thru with your "hub" has nothing to do with me...So why the fuck do you keep involving me? I don't know you, don't want to fuckin know you nor would I ever want to associate with a immature, crazy ass, insecure woman like you! The fact of the matter is that you dream this shit up in your mind to a point where you start believing the shit! Honey there is drugs for that, make sure you match the weight up and get the dosage right for it to be effective!

Then there is my job....hahah! First off, I have one and I own my own company ask your husband, he was around when I started it. Don't worry yourself wondering what i'm doing with my time. See honey when you're the boss you have no rules for the day other than makin money. I got that! My children have more in their savings accounts than you would ever make in your lifetime....believe that! And no I dont have shit to say to you because Bitch you are INVISIBLE to me! Although I dont know how I can miss you, but I owe you nothing! Yea, when I come around, I make sure that I speak to those that matter to me and you just don't fit that criteria sweetheart. And that is me being a WOMAN that don't give a fuck about Mrs. Cassandra Niecey Dallas...

Ya'll she think that I want her husband...smdh! We cool and definitely left the past in the past! It seems that you got your hands full sweetie checking up on his every move but if you was any good at it you would have valid proof other than "the voices in my head told me so!" And you tired of me....Bitch I'm so fuckin cool on you right now. And you keep speaking of "when I see you." C'mon Mrs. Dallas, you can't whoop me! You get out of breath chasing Demi around the house! Quit facebook stalking and tryin to have your family send me a friend request. Just because I have a mutual friend (your husband) that doesn't truly mean that they are a friend of his.... I know those people cuz we cool too! And they hate your dumb ass too!

I need to get some...how did you put it..."class 101?" Bitch you need a dictionary to get your grammar right! You so "polished" and shit yet so fuckin tacky. You can't keep your man happy so you wanna blame every female that comes in his presence. We cant help it that we threaten you with our "realness!" We not the reason that your marriage is failing...you are! Quit "acting like" everything in your house is cool! I don't care whether it is or isn't I really dont want to hear about it but you keep puttin your business out in the street then do stupid shit like "inbox a bitch" and then blame everyone else. How can I pick and pick if I don't ever talk to you or see you? You not on my facebook page, you not in my life... Is your husband talking about me again? hmmm...yea that could be it!

Now let's get one thing straight... on my worst day Mrs. Dallas, your husband will have more love for me than he ever will for you! Let me tell you why: he can come and sit and chill with me and my better half and have a Drama-Free day (only until you start blowing up all three of his cell phones) because after the first missed call he gotta be fucking somebody cuz he didnt answer. And Sweetheart you really need to check some shit in at the door because we (not you) have a "Dallas" in common and it isn't his mother (The new Mrs. Craig! ), or his sister honey! So...know your role! And like you say "don't call D call you" same goes for you...Call Me! Ask me Bitch what I'm talkin about and I can show you some shit that will make your fuckin head spin! You will then understand why you will never be put on the pedestal that he puts me on! Your husband is all about his children, family, friends....whoa! wait, is that it? Is Mrs. Dallas jealous of the children?? I know they more on your level but boo they just kids. Demi isn't old enough to be rockin a 3.5 carat diamond ring. But trust me her and Sam will have one that's bigger and more meaningful.

And lastly, I don't run nothing to your husband's mother and sister. It's disrespectful.. to even your "hub" (what a bullshit ass way to refer to your husband) but you tell them that shit yourself, I'm no messenger I'm just the muthafuckin executioner. And the only BITCH you need to be tending to is diamond, while your husband is AWAY making his life better!

Please feel free to comment on this shit... i know you was amused just like I was...lmao!

We gonna get him a t-shirt made that just simply says...